Though its been going to be 3 months already. but i still miss u so much kor.

Korkor..do u know everytime, when i hear other people calling their bro's korkor. i'll just stone there for a while..and think to myself..i have no one to call korkor anymore..i only left my ikor..that's my second brother. i feel so sad and feel like crying. but somehow i know, i know u never like seeing me cry korkor. i'm trying my best to be strong.

And until today..i still dun belive the fact that your really go ne you know..everytime when i do my hair or while i'm putting make up. i'll just look at the .. reflection of my mirror behind. and just think to myself..eh?? how come nobody come kacau me already..so quiet. ussualy..every single time when i'm looking at the mirror or something, he will always be there going through the toilet and coming in to my room to just anoy me..which thats his favorite thing to do..

There's just to much of memories of you kor. so anyway i'll show u guys some pictures..which is those memories till today that i never will want to forget it. i will charish it all. Kor..your always the best.

U see.. i use to be like always spending time looking at the mirror. can u see behind there a door beside the cabinet..?? yup..he always come through that door to kacau me. and since his pass away. my mom is trying not to always think of him. my mom change that cabinet away. cause in the same time my clothes was also becoming too much. there's not enough storage. so she bought me a new 1..

Its not mainly this..the new cabinet was too big i had to put to the other side of my room.


i just really wish 1 day..when i look at that door..i can see u ..coming in from that door. i really miss u so much kor.













ok..this fan thingi..was found back when only he pass away. cause got 1 time me and him was playing with the towel and the hanger swinging and swinging..then his towel suddenly wack this thing dunno fly where. was trying to find it the next day but could not... so at the end i found it when i bought my new cabinet, when we were changing to the other side..











yes..this is the towel..we use to like, after he bath..when he dress up and all already..then when he was waiting to dry up his hair..he will bored. so well. comes into my room and smack me with the towel. ="= esh. it hurts u know when i think about it..his really good at wacking people with towel.

then for me, the nearest thing would be the hanger..cause everytime when he come in my room. confirm i'm looking at the mirror. so yea.hehe. i'll grab the hanger and make the sound u know..hanger can make some sound like the rotan sound?? haha yea."phew" this sound like that?? and try to scare him. which it did haha! cute him. cause seriously when i get angry and when i wack ppl with stuff's example 'hanger'..the person will regret it. confirm will get the red mark 1.











This 2 cd reminds me..that he bought it for me.."in a way". actually u know what..he gave it to me...cause he said the song was boring..=.="...haha..but who cares!! the music was nice to me so i kept it till today..and actually i would not throw it cause is something that at leats was from him. cause i barely gets stuff from him so yea.















For this CJ7 flower thingi, people who reads my blog will know where i got it from. bt nvm will tell it again. i got it from 1 of my elder bro fren call ah chun. he bought it for my 16th birthday. and everytime when my bro just come in my room. and he will say..ehh!! i cant belive it lor..ah chun where got so nice to buy for u this kind of thing..damn expensive lor. then i'll be like looking at him. with the weird face. what" are" u" trying to mean..? i'm not worth to get this kind of thing..?? haha. me and my elder bro is always like that.

then i told him.. yes i got it..ok?? and he say must be cheap 1..i think so..?? only got the head of the CJ7.. then i say cheap your head larh..u dunno anything shut up can anot? got the body but u cant see only stupid!! u look inside. is tied to a stick so it can stand properly...



u see kor..got body also 1 lor..KK?? then he say..walao..u lucky man..he will buy u such thing. i never seen him buying any stuff for any girl until like that lorh. then i'll laugh hahaha!! i geng marh! =P he said u should appreaciate it lorh then.. then i my say, dun wory i will. bt then i also said, if its not for u who help me celebrate my birthday i also wont get this present. then he gives me a smile. which i hope i can see it eveyday. but..hiazz...














this was my first hp. i got it when i ws form 3. i wrap it with the gucci paper thing in sunway. so 1 time..when i got my new phone. i never use it anymore. then i day, my stupid elder bro. say: eh!! give me your old phone, i want to use. then i said, u dun have you own phone meh now huh?? he said: i want extra phone larh cannot arh?? then i said: u sure arh..?? u want my phone arh..?? got gucci print 1 worh..u will dare to carry out meh?? he said: i tare of the skin larh..i heard it' then i was like wtf..distroy my phone..?? NO WAY MAN!! then he started trenening me as usual..his very good at it trust me. so at the end forst to give him and i saw him tearing out the skin..i was so sad.

But then, when i think about it. i'm glad i gave it to him. cause at leats i give him something that he want's to use. cause u know what..when he had the car acciden't that night..the phone that he use to sms was this phone. when he was smsing's the gf..that got him angry. and the police pass it to the gf..when she went to the scene. and she pass it back to me.

Nw it look like that..after from the accident.














u see how geng..even our house cordless phone has his name on it. as 1 of the contact. cause u know why actually..?? hehe >< align="center">














even the refrigerator..has a magnet..that has his elephabent name.















last time..my bro's room. 2 of them sleep's in the same room. always when i pass by their room i'll always see two beds. 1 left 1 right. my second bro gerald. sleeps at the left 1. jeffrey my elder bro sleeps at the right 1. nearer to his computer.

Bt now..everything change. there's only 1 big bed. and that's for gerald. and can u see there a table there..?? yup that was the table..to put jeffrey's computer. where i always go in the room that time. he will always be sitting there to play his com.my mom also change to curtain's..yea..

thats's him last time.

the place where his computer was..bt now is so empty..we just use it as a place where and bro second bro do our hair.

Now that his no more here. his com was moved out of the room. for me to use already. i just really miss those times..when actually..i get to hear his voice when i call him to ask him wheather i can play the com. now dun nid ask. also can play edi. the waw he answers the phone..trust me, nobody actually answer phone like he does. ist really scary actually haha. dun belive?? ask my close frens. when last time i dun have a hp. they call my house..when he answer the phone haha. my fren thought they call the wrong house. but..i found it so funny.












this amplifier. he pass it to me once he didnt want it. but i was happy still. the osund system was good. cause everytime when his in the toilet brushing teeth or doing his hair..i will be in my room doing my hw or something. listening to the radio real loud. and then he will get pissed of. cause he said your lousy music dun play larh!! annoying u know!! then after few times. he pass the amplifier to me..so that i can connect it to my radio.

also talking about radio. i last time always listen to the radio because. i had no cd no nothing. so i will know everysong that been played at the radio alomost hehe>< . and thats why. sometimes when i'm at home sleeping or in school or anywhere. he will suddenlly call me up and ask me..eh!! whats the song name arh?? then he wil put loud specker for me to hear the song then i'll tell him what's the song name...so cute right him?? haha. cause he want's to download it. as u know nt everytime they will say the name of the song.
1 of my birhtday pics. the 2 boys also is my elder bro's fren. 1 is ah ho and the 1 who is wearing pink is ah chun. and thinking back. i dont know why i didnt take a pic with my elder bro..i just dont know why. i nv thought that, he will be gone so soon..life is just unexpected.

i even took a pic with my second bro, the second time i went barcelona. and also not taking it with my elder bro...='( and that was also the last time i went clubbing. and also clubbing with my elder bro. though i still got the chance to go clubbing, with my secong bro. but it wont feel the same anymore. i really wish the 3 of us can always go clubbing together when were all grown up but..hiazz..life is like that. were like the chipmunks though..













looking at the toilet now..that 3 of us use to share.. now is like just super empty. cause me and my second bro barely put stuff on top of the sink. which my elder bro puts all the gell until its like full. there's no place anymore. i sue to always see diffrent kinda hair styleing thing..and this is 1 of the expample's..

gatsby his fav.














And this 3pics..with the brown thing at the side was hanging there at me living hall. duno since when. it was always the five of us. now only theres the four of us. is a thing that can never be heal from our hearts. the cut is just so deep.

The 5 of us. Jeffrey(elder bro), Gerald(second bro) dad, mom, and me.


Jeffrey mom me dad gerald

Jeff, dad, me, gerald, mom

All grown up. 2007 Gerald, jeffrey, me, mom and dad. and this was also the last picture we took as a family..



then suddenly time fly's...2008 came.

And 1 blink of an eye. my elder bro just pass away.



Nw still everyday i get to see him. but is not the way i want to see him.